Ever Had To Leave a Movie Cause you Don't Fit In The Seat?

I have.
Last night.
The hubby and I got a sitter and snuck away for a late night movie at the new local theatre.
We got there, purchased our tickets, bought some popcorn and sodas, and when we went to sit down, to my horror, my absolute embarrassment, I didn't fit in the seat.
Like not even close.
I was humiliated.
I started to cry, and we left.

When we got home, I escaped to the bathroom for a long hot bath and a good cry.
While the water was running I took a good long look in the mirror.
I hardly recognized myself.
I don't know how I let it get this bad.
I've gained so much weight.
I'm unhealthy and ruining my body.
As a result, I've had too many surgeries, get sick all the time, and even lost the ability to have children.
My feet hurt, my back hurts.
I can't so as many things as I would like with Blythe because I lack the energy.

I'm not writing this so you will feel sorry for me.
I don't want that.
I feel sorry enough for myself.

This was my "Ah-Ha" moment.

Hopefully anyways.

It's time to do something.
To stop thinking about doing something.
And actually do it.

Stay tuned for a plan.....

1 comment:

Heather said...

you can do it Melissa! It probably sounds corny....but just take baby steps at it....The hardest part is starting...then before you know its a lifestyle change and it becomes easier and easier! PLEASE let me know if you need to talk or anything! Love you girl and GOOD luck!