12.16.2008

Finally In The Season, A Little Sadness, & Private At Last...W

I will admit that I am probably the laziest person on the planet. I procrastinate more than any other human being that I know. And when it came to taking my Halloween decorations down, and putting Christmas up, you can bet it just happened yesterday. We live in a tiny apartment so there isn't much room for anything, but what I was able to put up really helped me get in the mood of the season. And we can't afford a big tree this year, so I pulled out my mini one. For the past two years while I decorate the tree I like to watch 'The Family Stone". I highly recommend this movie to anyone who is looking for a good movie to watch this season while you stay home and cuddle with your sweetie, or blanket. Whichever is most comfortable. :o) And Jameson and I both have stockings that our mommies made for us, so I decided to make one for Blythe. I'm not sure I'm too crazy about how it turned out, so I will probably make a better one next year that will be her permanent one. We shall see. 
On a little bit of a sadder note. I don't know if this is an appropriate thing to post on here but I feel like in my daily life I probably don't always say the most appropriate things and I'm very upfront with how I feel so why change on here. And I'm at a place in my life where I can really use the support of my friends. 
I have been having 'female' problems since I was in seventh grade. I won't go into too much detail, but getting 'on track' has always been something that I have struggled with. I was told when I was 16 I would not be able to have children. Luckily I have been blessed with two gorgeous angels, but not without struggles. Pregnancy is an adventure for me and I didn't think I would make it out of this last one.  I have surgeries to help correct problems, and we've tried everything. So to make a long story short, I went to the doctor this past Friday because the pain I have everday has just gotten worse. He did an exam, ran some tests, and finally came to the conclusion that we knew was inevitable. I've lost the battle with PCOS and Endomitriosis, and Prolapsed Uterus, and at the ripe age of 26 I'm having a hysterectomy. That's really all I can say at the moment. It's been a devastating blow because I knew this was going to happen eventually but I thought I had more time to have at least one or two more children. Ok, that's it.
And last but not least. I am going private. I got a comment today from some random person and it totally freaked me out! I know that she only meant well, and I have no problem with people reading my blog, I just want to monitor who is ya know? So I will be going private on Sunday so please send me your emails!! 

10 comments:

Kassidy and Beau said...

Hi Melissa, our e-mail is: Newlyweds723@gmail.com

Heather said...

don't forget to add me...carrollhl@gmail.com
I'm sorry to hear about your recent news.....that has to be devastating! I couldn't imagine going through that so young, but you have a beautiful little girl and think what a blessing she is! Your in our prayers and we love you!

Alycia said...

wow - you're in our prayers!! my email is alyciaface@hotmail.com :)

Chris and Lesley said...

Ahh Mel - I am soooooooo sorry. I hate to hear that. I am hear if you need me. I love ya! my email is c-lmouritsen@hotmail.com - please count me it! Call if you need to talk. Let me know when the hysterectomy happens. Maybe I can make it down and help with Blythe.

angie j. said...

hang in there melissa! angiejimmie@gmail.com

Seesalou said...

melissa...check your viva e-mail address. i sent you a message yesterday. and that way you'll have my e-mail address to add me. keep your chin up.

LACI ANN said...

You are in our prayers!! We love you!!! My email address is lacigleave@gmail.com

Amy said...

I'm kind of paranoid of leaving my email on here for all the world to see, so I will send it to you on facebook.

I'm so sorry about the hysterectomy. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.

Spencer and Cynthia Mann said...

Hey, Melissa! Sorry about your news. cindyspence.cm@gmail.com

Spencer and Cynthia Mann said...

Hey, Melissa! Sorry about your news. cindyspence.cm@gmail.com